Stuck in a Rut

Motivation. Discipline. Perseverance. Existence. Yeah, I’m sure you’re all wondering why I’ve used words that are way beyond the normal English level capacity I can comprehend. I’ll get to it.

i get bored easily. this isn’t news. anyone who knows me would know that i cannot stand routine. which is why i cannot do anything properly. i cannot condition myself to work and do things that i want to do,that i have to do, that i need to do. i cannot push myself because i get so frickin’ bored. Or tired. Or indifferent.

Because of this, i tend to let people down. i tend to miss out on things that i could actually be experiencing. In theory, once i plan out the things i have to do, i feel psyched to do it, but when i go and do it, it just disappears.

just like that.

*snap*.

i need to get the fuck out of this slump and start working my ass off, or else, i’m gonna pay for it in the long run. (or in the nine-weeks-left-in-my-term run).

Motivation, where are you? Discipline, when are you going to kick-in. Perseverance, will you aid me? Existence, could you call up the other three? I badly need them.

Moving Forward

Moving on is probably the hardest thing anyone could do. By virtue of definition, it entails leaving someone or something behind. Forgetting things, fucking attachments.

I shouldn’t feel bad about this. I’ve done my part. I’ve no ‘What-ifs’ or ‘Shoulda-Woulda-Coulda’s. maybe it was because i was expecting more. Expecting something to happen.

April is drawing near. but it’s also still far away. I gotta grow a pair and get over it. maybe i should focus on myself first.

So far away, doesn’t anybody stay in one place anymore?

Test-1-2-3

Yes, i love wi-fi access via my phone. Basically because I can blog anywhere! Just like now! So yeah, this is my first mobile-created blog.

*applause*!

On a lighter note: less than a month til Rent!

On a not-so-light note: I still have yet to memorize ANY of the articles of the Bill of Rights. damn, i hate law.

I Survived (the first two weeks of) my last term!

Wow, second week of classes are over, and i feel like i’ve been in school for like 3months now. I’ve been pretty tired a lot, and it sucks! But hey, in my two weeks of class, I’ve survived (1.)a law exam which i didn’t study for! and (2.)A crammed INNOTEC paper, (3) and 4.5 hours worth of straight classes! Not to mention some pretty hectic org stuff! But hey, i survived! That’s what matters, right?

Am I looking forward to next week? Not as much, since i’ll probably be more stressed then. Next week will be the Presidential Forum, and i’m expecting some sleepless nights off it. Doesn’t matter. I’ll think of it as training, pre-thesis!

Speaking of which, why haven’t we started yet! Damnit! Better not speak too soon about surviving the term!

Wish me luck! (or better yet, do my workload. Any takers?)