The Gloves are Off

So as much as I wanted to have a fun and peaceful week, I really don’t feel I can. At least not fully. I can’t disclose the whole details, so let’s use a simple analogy.

I’ve sacrificed a lot for Lea. When I first met Lea, she was really out of it. And I was there, with Lea, by her side, making sure that she became the best that she could be. And after some time, she did. Well, not the best, but at least as far as I could go at that time. But then I left her, and she found another. I was still there, looking out for her from behind the scenes.

Now everything has gone downhill for Lea. She’s now slowly losing her friends, her acquaintances, even her identity. I wouldn’t say it’s the new guy’s fault. Mostly mine, actually. For making bad decisions, for failing at what I didn’t dream of failing at, for leaving and making the most horrible decision: leaving her for someone who doesn’t have the fire in him.

I pity Lea. She has one sole friend looking out for her, with all her best interests, while the others just don’t really care. I dunno if I should act, or just leave her be. Do I involve myself once more? Destroy another person’s reputation? Let her die? Help out the one looking out for her? Kill the last bits of esteem that one has? I dunno. And I can’t answer that. But how long can I pretend to be blind about this whole issue?

If I were a bitch, i’d take the gloves off and beat the crap out of this guy. But I’ve got principles (questionable as they are, they are still principles).

It would have been easier if I was no longer in school. It would be easier just not to care.

[A/N: At no point is Lea an actual person.]

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I’ve been trying to keep myself busy, not only because of the above, but because I got the time to kill. So here’s what I’ve been up to:

1. Student Council work
2. Series Midnight Marathons (Well, I don’t watch at midnight, but rather at night til around 2 in the morning. Most, I’m re-watching)
   1. Prison Break
   2. Avatar: The Last Airbender
   3. Glee
   4. Supernatural
3. Writing Stories- yep, writing stories again. Thank goodness, I got the time now.
4. Blogging. Of course, can’t forget this!
5. Reading books! After the longest time, I haven’t been reading anything. Now, I’ve got a goal. Finish one book every two weeks. Hurrah!
6. Do some random things, like Monopoly and the Haunted House thing. It’s still too early to discuss these, so I’ll let them be a mystery.

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To those who watched the Spring Awakening Musical last week, i envy you!

Don’t Do Sadness/Blue Wind
John Gallagher & Lauren Pritchard

Awful sweet to be a little butterfly.
Just wingin’ over things
And nothing deep inside.
Nothing goin’, goin’ wild in you, you know.
You’re slowing by the riverside,
Or floatin’ high and blue.

Or may be cool to be a little summer wind.
Like once through everything
And then away again.
With the taste of dust in your mouth all day
But no need to know.
Like sadness, you just sail away.

‘Cuz you know I don’t do sadness,
Not even a little bit.
Just don’t need it in my life.
Don’t want any part of it.
I don’t do sadness.
Hey, I’ve done my time
Lookin’ back on it all.
Man, it blows my mind.
I don’t do sadness,
So been there.
Don’t do sadness,
Just don’t care.

Spring and summer ev’ry other day
Blue wind gets so sad
Blowin’ through the thick corn,
Through the bales of hay,
Through the open books on the grass
Spring and summer

Sure, when it’s autumn
Wind always wants to
Creep up and haunt you
Whistlin’ it’s got you
With it’s heartache, with it’s sorrow
Winter wind sings and it cries

Spring and summer ev’ry other day
Blue wind gets so pained
Blowin’ through the thick corn,
Through the bales of hay,
Through the sudden drift of the rain
Spring and summer.

So maybe I should be some kind of laundry line.
Hang their things on me
And I will swing ’em dry.
You’re just wavin’ the sun throught the afternoon,
And then see, they come to set you free
Beneath the risin’ moon.

‘Cuz you know I don’t do sadness,
Not even a little bit.
Just don’t need it in my life.
Don’t want any part of it.
I don’t do sadness.
Hey, I’ve done my time
Lookin’ back on it all.
Man, it blows my mind.
I don’t do sadness,
So been there.
Don’t do sadness,
Just don’t care.

Spring and summer ev’ry other day
Blue wind gets so lost
Blowin’ through the thick corn,
Through the bales of hay

Spring and summer ev’ry other day
Blue wind gets so lost
Blowin’ through the thick corn,
Through the bales of hay,
Through the wandering clouds of the dust
Spring and summer

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Can’t have them both.